My thoughts

Feel a lil better these few days.

Believe the TLC+support I got from hubby helps a great lot. & the talk with boss has (to my surprise) a contribution too... not forgetting my friends, colleagues & dear san-mei who are around to cheer me on.

Still making daily trips to the hospital... & all the worries & anticipating for the worst have taken its toll. Also trying to spend more time & be more patient in listening to mum. Guess she needs to let it out after every visit to papa. It's physically & emotionally rather straining, taking into consideration she's Not a Woman of Few Words even on normal days. But we know it's certainly not ez for her. We all think she's being stronger than we've expected her to be.

On a positive note :
1) we (the siblings) have become closer through this,
2) I appreciate my honey more after seeing what he has gone through with me,
3) we really thank God as at least my dad managed to walk me down the aisle, looking healthy(which is a misconception). It's a mere 1 mth+ that daddy deteriorated drastically.
4) Vince & I have done our utmost in being with them at the final stage of his life which has left us lil or no regrets - brought my parents for 2 holidays just months before he's diagnosed, having them to stay with us, providing them a very nice environment for living... though it's just so short for daddy. I know he's happy to see we're married blissfully. That day, when I was having a heart-to-heart talk with him, he praised his new SIL & told me to cherish him. I will, papa, watch my temper & nurture our marriage.

Like every1 tells me....... life still goes on..... but definitely it'll be very much different when the day eventually comes.