Lightning does strike twice

Ok, I did it again...

I've tendered my resignation 2 weeks ago, so my last day of work will be 3rd Jun, a Wed. The previous time my last day was 3rd Sept, a Wed too.

Some of the colleagues exclaimed in disbelief "huh? not... again...??" or "so what's the problem this time?". But I've expected such reactions :\ As my name was put up in the leavers' database since Monday, on average 3 persons will ask about my resignation each day. I've, again, made a name there... but not in a favourable way:(

At least those gals who are close to me know what've been happening to my boss & my department... They just hope that I will make a better choice this time round. This, certainly, is also my prayer.

I've a great boss & I've learnt quite a bit from him. But that doesn't mean a nice man wouldn't be cornered, wouldn't be involved in the politics stirred up by some leaders of the firm, wouldn't be stressed out. It doesn't help that he's new in this department (promoted & joined this department just a week before I did), so is his boss (my big boss) who is also in the firm's leadership team. The atmosphere in our department is often tensed because almost every other day our boss is pressured or being questioned by his boss. So much so that he would get a lil erratic in his instructions as he's always busy handling our big boss.

Just last Fri, I've a pretty heated argument. For consecutive 2 days, he'd been blaming me for things that're not my fault. It's not the 1st, 2nd or 3rd time. Some asked me to speak up for myself. Yet I didn't as I empathised with him. But I had my limit too, he raised his voice at me over something he missed out himself. And that was it. I let out a snort of absurdness before walking away though he told me "wait! I haven't finished!". When he continued, I rebutted him from my cubicle next to his. Thinking of it now, it's kinda funny but everyone must have heard including those from the next department. Shortly after, he sent me an email of apology. One of my team members, V, tried consoling me & it did help to distract me from the anger:

V: Hey gal, cool down ya.. He's like this when under stress.. We've got it from him before too.
Me: Ok, thanks:) Well, it's not the 1st or 2nd time being wronged..
V: I know, that's why when I heard what he said, I was like "oh no... there he's blaming you again"... But you also very daring, dared to flare up... maybe because you've resigned lor.
Me: I think even if I haven't resigned, I'd still do it. But after doing it, I'll resigned.
V: Haha!

That sounds like a joke but think I would really do it. While having to endure such treatments infinitely is not a long term arrangement for me, resign without a job is also not the best solution. So I have to really thank God for paving my way even before this unpleasant situaiton occurred.

This time round, I didn't force my way to the new job. About 2 months ago, this friend, EH, approached me as his company was recruiting & asked me if I was interested. I was pretty keen but didn't dare to commit as I've no relevant product knowledge. But he thought I was suitable for this role, based on my character & said would arrange an interview for me. From that day on, hubby & I committed everything to the Lord in prayer. After the last lesson, I didn't want to use my own 'intelligence' or 'capability' to get what I thought would be interesting & suitable for me. We trust that if this was prepared by God, He would make all other arrangements for me. All I did was to go for the interview with a sincere attitude.

At the interview, I brought up a pretty ridiculous request - to work 5 days a week instead of the 5.5-day which the company's having and thought this job opportunity was as good as gone. Hubby's a lil disappointed that I've let this chance go as he, too, thought this job would suit me better but I didn't wish to compromise on something which's of paramount significance to me to then realise that I couldn't come to terms with it later. I've phobia... I didn't want to commit the same mistake again.

So I was really glad that EH reverted on Mon morning (interview was on Sat) that he & the directors who interviewed me agreed to my requests:) What can I say except that it's all God's grace?

I'll be getting a lil lesser than current but it's going to be fully offset by the ERP charges we're paying now. Imagine.. 3 gantries every morning (comparing to 1 in my new job).. particularly one that hits $4 when sometimes we're late & pass through it after 8.30am.

I hope I'll be happier in the new environment & job... this is my ongoing prayer.